Don't ask me why whenever I hear , or think of the word LOVE...this scripture is what always appears to me in the back of my mind. It's almost as if I can hear the words being whispered in my ear. "For God so loved the world"...Wow, did you hear that? Let me say it again. God so loved the world...God loves the world.
God loves...me.
Just think about that for a second please. God's love. Those two words right there, are the words that carry the entire weight of everything that is. All because of God's love. Before there was the first man and woman, Gods love was present. And long before there was this amazing planet we live on, or ANY other planet that was ever lived on at any point in time by anyone or thing...Divine love was there. Even before the Big bang? I truly believe that God's love was the reason for the big bang in the first place.
God's love is the truth, it is the light, and it is the way. "The way to what?",some of us might ask. "Where do you want to go?", is my reply. And the thing that I find to be the most amazing is that the scripture doesn't even say that you have to even understand how God's love works...all you have to do is believe.And then it goes on to say that "whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life." Now ask me where I want to go.
I want to have eternal life. I want to know about God's love. I want to learn about His promises, and live according to God's will. Because, I DO believe.
I believe that God's love is the kind of Love we ALL have been searching for in our lives. And I know that alot of people are going to say to me,"Carlos...what is up with all of this God talk. And just what do you know about God?Let alone his love?" And all that i can reply is, "Not much at all. Because I really don't know much at all about God and his eternal love, but I do know that I believe."
You see, because believing has always been the toughest task for ME to keep my faith in tact. And I'll be completely honest...I lost my faith in God for many, many years. Those years when I was faithless were some of the worst years of my life. I was a faithless, homeless, suicidal teen-aged criminal. But through it all I realize now that I ALWAYS had one thing.I believed.
I believed that some how, someway there has to be a god that is in control of all things...even me. I believed that if I truly wanted to change my life and came before God in prayer...that he would indeed listen to my cries. I believed in God. The problem is that somewhere along the line I lost my faith in Him. And you know the saying " hindsight is 20\20?"
I can see now that all of the foul things that happened to me in my life...were all a direct result of an action or decision I made. None of it was Gods fault, but it was alot easier to BLAME god for all of my problems. I mean...why in the world would I want to blame myself? It sure was A LOT easier to blame god. Especially because I was familiar with the word of god. Having been a student of biblical scripture since the age of seven.
I always kept the idea in the back of my mind that no matter what...at the end of the day God would always accept me back. Like the parable of the prodigal son. Somewhere along the line though i forgot the whole...you shouldn't test god thing. But that's another for another time. The point is that I DO believe. And it is my belief in God, his words, and promises that have re-established my faith in LOVE
